Fear, Inspiration, and a new year of goals

Wow, it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything on this blog.

Since I finished the Art a Day for a year project, while I haven’t been drawing every day, I’ve certainly been keeping busy, with both visual and movement art.

Now it’s time to begin a new project.

But first I wanted to talk about fear when it comes to creating a piece of art:

What does a blank page mean to you? To me a blank piece of paper is the most intriguing and exciting thing I can imagine…and also the most terrifying.

How do you go about translating what is in your brain onto the page when you know that it will always be better in your head than out in the real world? How do you go about creating something when every possible story has already been told? (No, seriously, look it up. There are really only seven basic stories that you can tell and all of them have been told in millions of different ways.) How do you gather the courage to even attempt to create art when there are so many other talented people in the world who are creating their own masterpieces?

I don’t really have any answers to these questions. I’ve just been asking them to myself all day after coming home to stare at that blank page waiting for me.

All artists have moments of self doubt. They may not even be moments. That may be your entire career as an artist, continuous self doubt.

But the fact that no matter what you create, there will be at least one person in the world who is affected by it. Is that enough of an incentive to create something then? You may never even meet that person. You may die not knowing if your art has any value or if it touched anyone at all.

I say all of this because this new project that I’m working on is going to be very difficult for me. Drawing is not the issue, it’s capturing the spirit of the story I have in my head and putting it on paper that is driving me up the wall.

I’m going to have to keep going no matter what, as I feel like this is a project that needs to be created.

But I just wanted to put it out there in the world, this pondering of new creations, the terrified feelings of not being able to do everything perfectly, as I know there are thousands of other artists who are going through the exact same thing.

I’m right there with you. And I’m sure we’ll push through the panic and create something that, while we know will not be perfect or 100% accurate to what we have lodged in our brains, will touch someone somehow, somewhere in the world.

Let’s be afraid together. And then get over it and get shit done.

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AAD (Art a Day Project): Week 44

("Clarke Girl". Friday 7/18/14. Pencil.)

(“Clarke Girl”. Friday 7/18/14. Pencil.)

("Mata Hari". Saturday 7/19/14. Pencil.)

(“Mata Hari”. Saturday 7/19/14. Pencil.)

("Middle Cartoon". Sunday 11/19/14. Pencil.)

(“Middle Cartoon”. Sunday 11/19/14. Pencil.)

("Teenage Line". Monday 7/21/14. Pencil.)

(“Teenage Line”. Monday 7/21/14. Pencil.)

("Captured". Tuesday 7/22/14. Pencil.)

(“Captured”. Tuesday 7/22/14. Pencil.)

("Revenge". Wednesday 7/23/14. Pencil.)

(“Revenge”. Wednesday 7/23/14. Pencil.)

("Peace Offering." Thursday 7/24/14. Pencil.)

(“Peace Offering.” Thursday 7/24/14. Pencil.)

AAD (Art a Day Project): Week 11

Well, I’ve filled one entire drawing pad now with artwork. We’ll see what this next book holds.

("Square". Friday 11/29/13. Start- 2:34 pm. End- 12:52 am. Sharpie. Attempt at humor. Learned I am not funny)

(“Square”. Friday 11/29/13. Start- 2:34 pm. End- 12:52 am. Sharpie. Attempt at humor inspired by an MST3K short on cheating. Learned I am not funny. I will leave humor to the professionals in the future.)

("Ten Cups". Saturday 11/30/13. Start- 11:00 am. End- 6:15 pm. Sharpie. Messin around with Tarot cards)

(“Ten Cups”. Saturday 11/30/13. Start- 11:00 am. End- 6:15 pm. Sharpie. Messin around with Tarot cards)

("Nine Cups". Sunday 12/1/13. Start- 10:48 am. End- 4:30 pm. Sharpie. Messin around with Tarot cards.)

(“Nine Cups”. Sunday 12/1/13. Start- 10:48 am. End- 4:30 pm. Sharpie. Messin around with Tarot cards.)

("Crappy Backdrop idea". Monday 12/2/13. Start- 8:00 pm. End- 8:30 pm. Colored pencil and sharpie. Look, I had a lot to do that day. I get some freebies dudes.)

(“Crappy Backdrop idea”. Monday 12/2/13. Start- 8:00 pm. End- 8:30 pm. Colored pencil and sharpie. Look, I had a lot to do that day. I get some freebies dudes.)

("Practice". Tuesday 12/3/13. Start- 2:35 pm. End- 9:33 pm. Pencil. I draw really crappy hands, so this was just a little extra practice)

(“Practice”. Tuesday 12/3/13. Start- 2:35 pm. End- 9:33 pm. Pencil. I draw really crappy hands, so this was just a little extra practice)

("Vegas". Wednesday 12/4/13. Start- 1:35 pm. End- 10:28 pm. Pencil.)

(“Vegas”. Wednesday 12/4/13. Start- 1:35 pm. End- 10:28 pm. Pencil.)

("Harley". Thursday 12/5/13. Start- 12:45 pm. End- 2:58 pm. Sharpie. My fave this week.)

(“Harley”. Thursday 12/5/13. Start- 12:45 pm. End- 2:58 pm. Sharpie. My fave this week.)

AAD (Art a Day): The First Week

Well, I’ve almost survived the first week of drawing a finished piece of artwork every day. It’s a fascinating project – I feel like I’m learning so much about my art and myself, even though it’s only been  a few days.

The first few were easy because it was the weekend. The real challenge came when I had to work my full time day job, dance, and then run home to finish a picture each day.

Needless to say I had some very late nights.

So here we go: the first round of my Art a Day project.

Keep in mind that art a “Day” to me doesn’t necessarily have to fall within the traditional sense. If I finished a picture after midnight (technically the start of a new day), I still count the picture as finished on the day it started (as long as I haven’t gone to bed, the day is not over yet).

Also, these are, of course, not going to be perfect. There are days where I am not going to want to draw at all, but I will anyway. I want to see what kind of things I can pull out of my brain, even when I’m not feeling creative or imaginative at all.

(Harlequin - Saturday 9/21/13. Start time: 9:30 am. End: 3:00 pm. Sharpie.)

(Harlequin – Saturday 9/21/13. Start time: 9:30 am. End: 3:00 pm. Sharpie.)

(Fairy. Saturday 9/21/13. Start- 5:00 pm. End- 8:16 pm. Colored Pencil.)

(Fairy. Saturday 9/21/13. Start- 5:00 pm. End- 8:16 pm. Colored Pencil.)

(Flower Children. Sunday 9/22/13. Start- 11:12 am. End- 6:15 pm. Colored Pencil and Sharpie.)

(Flower Children. Sunday 9/22/13. Start- 11:12 am. End- 6:15 pm. Colored Pencil and Sharpie.)

(Sunflowers. Monday 9/23/13. Start- 8:10 pm. End- 11:45 pm. Colored Pencil and Sharpie.)

(Sunflowers. Monday 9/23/13. Start- 8:10 pm. End- 11:45 pm. Colored Pencil and Sharpie.)

(Art Deco Peacock. Tuesday 9/25/13. Start 9:12 pm. End- 12:49 am. Colored Pencil and Sharpie. Thanks to  Chiara for the idea!)

(Art Deco Peacock. Tuesday 9/24/13. Start 9:12 pm. End- 12:49 am. Colored Pencil and Sharpie. Thanks to Chiara for the idea!)

(La Llorona. Wednesday 9/26/13. Start- 8:12 pm. End- 12:46 am. Colored Pencil and Sharpie. Thanks to Pepe for the idea!)

(La Llorona. Wednesday 9/25/13. Start- 8:12 pm. End- 12:46 am. Colored Pencil and Sharpie. Thanks to Pepe for the idea!)

(Harvest Moon. Thursday 9/26/13. Start- 5:30 pm. End- 7:11 pm. Colored Pencil and Sharpie. Thanks to Janice for the Harvest Moon idea!)

(Harvest Moon. Thursday 9/26/13. Start- 5:30 pm. End- 7:11 pm. Colored Pencil and Sharpie. Thanks to Janice for the Harvest Moon idea!)

A Little Experiment…

A friend of mine started a project a while ago, where she drew a picture every day and then posted her pictures on her facebook page.

I want to do the same. So, for the next year, I will be drawing one or more pictures a day. Some may be small, others may be large. Some are going to turn out really bad and others good.

I’m not necessarily concerned with the overall quality of my artwork, rather what I can produce over a years time to measure my growth. It’s sort of a study of creativity- how creative can a person be when forced to produce something each day, rather than letting inspiration come at random.

I don’t usually draw everyday. But I want to take a writer’s approach. I’ve read that a lot of writers journal, free write, or do some form of writing exercise to keep on top of their skill and to practice. That’s what this project will be-practice.

But I’ll probably need some help. I’m not sure how much imagination one person can have. In fact, seeing as how almost none of my artwork is completely from my own brain (usually it’s inspired by other people or art), I’ll probably be looking for suggestions on what to draw. Feel free to give me suggestions as the year goes on.

This blog will hold me accountable. Each week I’ll post the seven drawings. The rule I’m setting is that they must be finished and signed (although, like I said, I may not find them particularly good). I’ll also post the date that they were finished and how long it took to finish them.

The project starts today (9/21/2013). Next Saturday will be the first seven. Wish me luck! (And if you are a fellow artist and want to join in on the project, please do. It’ll be very interesting I think.)